Guess- there is another apology in order.
My lack of writing for the last few weeks. - So sorry. Couldn't have been more on the edge of utter overwhelmedness- with my career...my love life... just my life in general.
It seems like the last month has been very trying- and in all honesty.. for the beginning part of it I was acting like a cry baby.
Things just were not working out - and I was slightly jetlagged.. which made it more of a reason to stay in my bed. _ reason for not writing. I didn't want to whine. I want to come from a place of: If I don't have anything nice to say- don't say it.
Plus - I wasn't getting my way with a specific person.. which in all fairness- was very childish of me. What I realized - all people don't think like me. That is the beauty in the world. A learning lesson. And it's not personal. It's just the way it is. Namasté.
Is that why they call it MARCH MADNESS?
NO WORRIES THOUGH!
I'm out of the deep and endogenous hole I had created. Thank god.
The first day of Spring was my turn around. Lots of love and life. From my students and from my friends. With this sign of spring it seems like everyone is on the upsweep.
I am apart of that wave. Bringing my smile into the places where it is dark.
There is so much going on in my life. I am in the process of starting my own business. Getting intouch with suppliers - finding out how I want to merchandise.. par-oozing stores that I like the products in- I am having so much fun. But my mind is racing a 1,000 miles a minute. The last few weeks been able to feast on a box of *gluten free* mac and cheese mixed in with some sauteed Kale by midnight before I crash. Not to mention the Swedish Fish I've been craving & admitingly eating.
I sit here and look at my dog. Darla. She is fast asleep on her bed. She is half on the cushion- her head resting on the wood floor of my bedroom. She looks so peaceful.
I know I've been working hard- but is there something that I am missing? And I'm not jealous of my dog - that she gets to do this all day- I am more coming from the angle.. Could I be a better mom to her? Do I need to slow down a bit ? Thank god I don't have kids- I don't know what I would do with them right now- Or a boyfriend.. forget that.
I mean - she does live in the lap of luxury. And smack dab in the heart of Cape Cod- I guess so do I. With the ocean minutes away. Life couldn't be better.
But if I keep going down this path- how long can this crash plan work? I mean- I've gotten to the point where my ears are ringing from all the caffeine I am drinking.
IT is so simple though. To simplify. And I know this.
So I started making changes to make my life more manageable.
Last night I went grocery shopping. I bought food that I can eat that doesn't take a hour to cook- that is healthy. I cleaned my room out- Did all my laundry- folded it.
I made a pact with myself anything I touch in my wardrobe that I sneer at- I throw in my good-will bag that I keep in the hallway. Every outfit I try on that I don't wear I put back in my closet. NEATLY.
I've started asking myself... What does inspired living look like? To me- it looks clean. Simple. Loving. Creative. Happy. Wildly free. Courageous. Fun. With tons of Laughter. Being Human. Admitting truths. Forgiveness.
What does it mean to you? And how can you create it for yourself? What tiny steps are leading you towards being free?
In all honesty- that's what's going to change the world.
Think about it.
OH! and while I have you're attention :) I was asked to be a presenter at this years Love Yoga Festival- http://loveyogafest.com/festival-info/presenters/
Would love all of you to join us!!!
Peace and love <3