Good Evening :)
After 3 flights and a 45 minute rollercoaster car ride - I made it. To the land of the dogs- horses- ATVS- motorcycles- and rangerovers... Surfer haven. Pura Vida.. Costa Rica.
The adventure began- after not sleeping for a solid 24 hours- getting to Boston at 5 am - arriving in San Jose at 2- Tambor 2:30 Santa Teresa - 3:30 - I was great until our car ride ( or shall I say RollerCoaster Ride) - Where I ended up puking for the first half hour of my stay.
Thankfully- after a good nights sleep- and lots of water.. and toast- Ashley was back to normal.
Though I will say - last night - I was scared. Never been sick in another country before...
You see last year that was the least of my problems. As a veteran traveler to CR - I've learned a few things.. and the most important to me ( and to any "sensitive" women out there) is to pack your own TP - yes toliet paper.
In these parts- they only have scented 2 ply. And I get the 2 ply- however- scented.. I mean this is what you call "problem city" or Yeast infection haven.
So I've learned. I brought my 2 rolls of Charmin- pack of ultra sensitive babywipes. I'm set.
But not for car sickness.
How can you prepare yourself for that? Oops. Well good thing I am back to normal.
You all have to understand How beautiful it is down here- especially right now. I'm sitting in a hammock - typing away- I can hear crickets. My hair is wet- but it feels refreshing. Palm trees and stars above me. I can hear kind conversation in the distance.
Today- I tried something new too.
Acro Yoga :)
I am hooked. So watch out Boston- because- I will be joining you all very soon.
I'm sorry I haven't written in a while- It's really because of 3 things.
1.) is because I had something phenomenal clear for me that I didn't know how to articulate...
2.) because I've been getting ready to TRAVEL :)
3.) bc I hurt someone unintentionally - and I feel sad- which is a problem in Pura Vida.
So my life has been VERY busy!
The good news about the phenomenal clearing is that I took full responsibility to the demise of my last "big" relationship - through some coaching- I was able to have a real conversation with him before I left- for the very first time ... he was able to hear me- After all this work I have done on myself this year- this was a great gift.
We both walked away feeling empowered and full of love - with out expectation.
This had been weighing on me for the last year and a half. It was time.
I feel free- amazing- Ready for anything. Clear. Happy.
Now the "problem" that - well - They won't speak to me- this person in the grand scheme - I guess obviously doesn't care too much about our friendship to resolve... and in all my years- there is really only one friend - from high school- that won't speak to me. As you all know- if we have had a confrontation or problem- I try to resolve within the day.. but these 2 people.....
I ask myself - what is the lesson to learn. Both are out of my life for completely different reasons. And I am hoping this recent one- will pop back into my life when I return. Even if its to voice the aggression- though- I will say- as my roommate put it - " Ashley- It's time you got some Haters- Everyone's got some".
I guess it wasn't acceptable to me- and I am not sure if it still is. I believe life is too short to have unresolved business. Plus the fact- that we are all living in an illusion we call our "story" basing all our interactions with people on lies we tell ourselves is true.
The other lesson I face is one that is called patience. Good things will come... Eventually- Which in all fairness has been my life practice. Something that I am very fond of now.. but when patience pops its head out of its little whole- I am always wary at the beginning. I have to remember that life is this roller coaster with big highs and lows- small troughs and minute crests. Like the rolling waves..
So I sit here in Costa Rica and I think- This is a WAY better time- that Skyping with some "boyfriend" at home. I get to pump out my delicious consciousness to you- I get to spill my guts. Because that is WHAT I DO. My Hater's have never taken me down- though I will always have open arms to resolute and inspire them to live a fulfilled life... Today I will spend all of my energy here. In this space. In this time. Which is 6:47 am :)
Instead- I'll tell you how amazing Acro Yoga was!!!
HOLY SHIT- YOU HAVE TO TRY IT! As well as A Tritz- this amazing ice cream sandwich down here- has chocolate sauce and graham cracker crust. A- mAzing.
AS well as a Trits -
YUM YUM YUM
But AcroYoga in all seriousness- was in fact one of the best things I have ever tried. I got to FLY today. Instantly put my self into the hands of someone I have hardly met- and flew- and circled around and around. I felt light. I felt free- For the first time in so long I just dropped everything that I knew- because I don't know anything about IT. It's beyond everything I ever imagined it would be.
I wonder if I threw this mentality into all of my interactions with everyone - if it would just flow gracefully again?
Would I in-fact have a chance at being free.
My mantra till we meet again will be: " Drop what I think I KNOW and leave the rest"
I wonder what that is? :)