There is an Art to Letting go. AND if there were ever a year that I had to learn about this - it would have been last year. You see, for my whole life, I have been used to a science of things.. I've had this outlook to life if I am the best at everything that I do -I will get what I want.
Last year I went into the year with that mentality. My ex had started a new relationship and damnit If I was going to be single. So I started grooming myself to be this perfect woman "in my mind"- going on Match.com- finding the "perfect guy". Things seemed pretty good. BUT i learned when I "groom" myself for something that just isn't me- what makes me delicious to the world gets shoved in a box somewhere.
I wasn't being authentic.
So obviously this relationship didn't work. And for the highly emotional self that I am... when it was over- I hardly got upset.
IT could have also been the place that I was in... I kept trying to be in a relationship with someone because I could hardly bare to think of my EX being with someone else. I learned quick that it doesn't help the pain by covering up one guy with another. And thats what I share with you here.
There is this sense of authenticity that I've had to learn this year. Let me tell you- its been tough getting real with myself.
I've learned that Friends are EVERYTHING. Everything everything EVERYTHING. I have literally the best friends I could ever have... We go out on dates, make dinner, go on trips, go up to boston, talk on the phone, text, yoga. Make cookies... We make thug happen. We eat healthy.. Inspire each other to do the same.
I've learned that If I ever am to date someone again.. its going to have to mean that they are on the same frequency that I'm at. Be my friend. BC thats what I love.. and how about try a healthy lifestyle.. what a turn on. A guy that would rather drink a green drink than a beer. YES PLEASE. Or Be AS PASSIONATE as I am.. on at least ONE or a million things like I am.
I've learned that I LOVE being by myself. And I love walking Darla by myself. I've talked about this before.. But I've really learned to love myself. Honestly.
But I love my cappuccino. Double. Extra dry.
To me this might look like a list of things you hear in a Romantic Film. But to me its a proclamation. An affirmation to the world at what I am committed to.
I am committed to getting my hands into everything. Yes I already play music, teach yoga, and take photos.. but guess what? I am a Web designer.. I also would like to have my own bathing suit company one day..
ALL of this and more creates a space where I get to Let GO. I get to let go and GIVE the things that matter most my energy and space.
I ask you.. what matters most to you? AND how do you inspire the world?
What new things can you try to create space and give energy to inspiration.. not devastation?
To me this makes all the difference.
I ask one more thing.. If you haven't already today.. Take the time to just enjoy nature. Let yourself hear the wing as it whips through your hair.. Or listen to the water as it falls upon the sand..
I hope you enjoy this beautiful day :) ... and if you get to watch my movie ENJOY ( and excuse me as I look like I just rolled out of bed)
Love and light <3